Wasting Time?

It's been a challenging week.  I've been not so good, but it's all about building habits, about building for that foundation for the future.  I've had to go backwards to be able to go forward.

I'll admit to thinking that this would be easy.  This is not that easy.  Physically I don't feel the hunger that I used to feel.  Emotional and bored eating is something that is difficult to change the habits for.  I need to find things to do to distract me and occupy me.

I've still lost weight.  I will get an exact number when I go to the Doctor this time next week.

Easter has come and been and not a single Easter egg was consumed.  Yay me :)

New Week - 1st April

New week will start tomorrow.  Almost over week 2.  Everything is going well - my wounds are healing and I am losing weight.  I did not think that I was, but I think that I've lost almost 8kgs (18 pounds).  I'm trying not to focus on the weight loss at this stage.  I'm eating what I am meant to, however I have had a few things not on the list (including a chocolate freddo).  The more prepared I am with lunches and dinners, the better I do.

This week I will stick to my diet and I will move more.

I have been light headed this week and had a trip to the doctors thinking that my blood pressure meds are too high.  We have halved them, but this is not helping.  I also have a cough, so I might be sick which is causing the light headedness.

Let's see what happens next week.

I have.

Last Monday 19 March 2012, I had surgery.  I had weight loss surgery. I have had a lap band inserted.

At this time, I weighted 199.0 kilograms (438.7 pounds)
I am 183 cm tall (6 feet)
BMI 59.4
I am female
I am 35
Goal weight: 84 kilograms (185.2 pounds)
Weight Loss Goal:  115 kilograms (253.5 pounds)

This first week has not been so bad.  I've had the week off work, however did have a dental appointment on Friday.  I spent Monday in surgery and Monday night in hospital.  Although this is a day procedure, because of my weight, I stayed in hospital overnight.  Just to be sure.

This week I have had shoulder pain, a sore throat and a little bit of heartburn.  Nothing crazy.

I have not really had that much to eat this week.
Monday was a mouth full of apple juice, a couple of spoons of chicken broth, some water and some peppermint tea.
Tuesday was a mouth full of coffee,a couple of spoons of yoghurt, a couple of spoons of pumpkin soup, some water and some peppermint tea.
Wednesday was a 100ml of banana smoothie, a couple of spoons of pumpkin soup, some water, some flat diet coke and 2 teaspoons of vanilla gelato.
Thursday was a small coffee (100ml), a 100ml of banana smoothie, a couple of spoons of pumpkin soup, some water, some peppermint tea and some fruit gelato.
Friday was a small coffee (100ml), 1/2 cup of pumpkin soup, 1/2 cup of custard, some water and some peppermint tea.  I also sucked the flavour off of some cheese and chive biscuits.  I was craving the flavour, but knew I could not eat them.  Wrong I know
Saturday (today) I had one weetbix with milk, a small coffee (100ml) and some water (it's almost lunch time).

I have to find some other outlet for the mindless eating I used to do.  I know that I can't continue to do that.  I need to take up something.  Exercise will be one of the things that takes a part in my life, but not for a few more weeks. General out and about walking will be part now.

This morning I feel tired.  I am going back to work on Monday so need to work through the desire to just crawl back into bed.  I can't do that today because it will just make Monday tougher.

I'm about to head out now.  I will be checking back in.  This blog will be one of the outlets that I will use to counteract the mindless, bored and/or emotional eating that I used to do.  I will succeed.

Yes

I will.